Last night I stayed up too late, playing a video game and eating chocolate. It was the best.
But during the evening I got a sudden urge to take a class. This is the kind of urge that comes on all of a sudden for me on a somewhat regular basis. I’ll just be hanging out, puttering, or playing a game when suddenly my heart yearns to take a class and nothing can happen until I figure out what kind of class.
My first instinct, of course, is to try to suppress this urge, because it feels like anxiety, and I kind of hate anxiety. And I kind of hate this feeling because it’s uncomfortable, and my first response is always that this feeling is a problem and I have to make it go away.
Of course, trying to make feelings go away is one of the things that led me to years of alcoholism and living my life on a bar stool, so I need to watch out for that impulse.
Anyway, yesterday this uncomfortable feeling came over my heart, and it was a craving to take a class. So I followed it down the rabbit hole.
The one thing I knew was I wanted it to be a class that could do something to improve the work I do with all of you. I searched for all sorts of classes, but know matter how many courses I looked up none of them scratched the itch.
Finally, I pulled an oracle card, and asked the question: “What do I need to learn next?"
The card I pulled was about self-expression, and specifically expressing your desires and expressing yourself creatively, which is, of course what I am all about.
When I sank deep into the answer, the words that came to me were: “Soul speak.” And I knew I needed to deepen my practice of writing from that soft spot in my heart, the soul part.
This felt so true, that the uncomfortable feeling went away, and it was replaced by the feeling that comes with truth, and that is soft, flowing, freedom.
It struck me how interesting it is that I can write and write everyday. I can write all the true things. I can write from my heart, and still there is more to learn about this practice. This also feels true, and it fills my heart with excitement, because I love learning.
Sometimes those uncomfortable feelings and those anxious cravings are important things to explore, because when you learn what's true about them, you get what you need next on your journey.
What have you been craving lately? What does your soul know is true about this craving?
I’m so excited to deepen my practice of authentic, soul-centered, self-expression with all of you this year! Well, really, I'm scare-cited!
P.S. I ended up signing up for Laurie Wagner's writing practice, 27 Wilder Days. Should be fun!
P.P.S. Share this letter with a friend who always wants to take a class!
P.P.P.S. Ready to start writing? Download your free workbook, 3 Habits to Calm Your Fear and Get You Writing.
Hi, I'm Emma Veritas!
I'm a writer, blogging coach, personal development teacher, and oracle card reader. I've been writing inspirational blogs, newsletters, and social media posts for 6+ years. This practice has grown me, and calls me ever deeper into healing everything that stops me from showing up as my true self. It has changed my life, and it changes the lives of my readers everyday.
I graduated with my Bachelor's degree in English from the Honor's Program at the University of Massachusetts, where I wrote my thesis on the power of story during hard times.
I completed Martha Beck's Life Coach Training.
I'm an endorsed Soul's Calling Coach.
I am a life long learner in the craft of writing, most recently completing courses on fiction writing and plot development through WritersHQ.
I have been studying energetic healing, meditation, and the intuitive arts for 15+ years, and I can't wait to share these gifts with you.